I just ran my book through the printer - 130 pages - and it wore out the printer, which stopped at about 62, only having printed the last 68 pages or so. I don't know why it would start at the end and work forward, but that's what happened, and the ink was a little spare, and the print too small.
But my book, as it is, is now right here in my hands. I will start using this blog again to talk about its development and my progress on it. I have a critical situation which I will explain briefly.
The book is my life work. If there's nothing else I do in life, what I want to do is explain how language should be viewed as a self-organizing system. Many of my thoughts and resources are on this blog somewhere and you can find them by perusing the template and seeing what I dug up. In my better days I was much more careful about resources and documenting what I found. I also have a paper file in front of me that I'm using.
Here's my problem: now that I'm seventy, I'm less inclined to stretch those academic muscles to do the thinking required to lay this all out carefully, though I know I can still do it with what time I have left. I'm impatient with things that remind me of work and of the rigorous discipline of academia that I inhabited for many years. On the other hand, since this is my life work, I have to get going on it and produce something. And, the urgency is increased by the fact that I'm getting cochlear implants, having health issues, etc., so with each blow to my general well-being I find myself saying, "you have to finish this now!"
I got stuck on the literature review section. Briefly, how do I put all this stuff into the book such that people who want to dig more into various aspects of what I'm saying, have resources to pursue it? In many cases I haven't read the books. I know they are there but I am running out of time. I say to myself, I really need to read up on perception, or on Cooley, but at the same time I'm not doing it. I'm door-dashing. I'm taking care of a 19-year-old dependent and a 16-year-old very-dependent. I'm struggling to keep body and soul together. I'm recovering from cochlear implant surgery.
Two big problems have been a stumbling block. First, language is incredibly complex. I feel the urge to explain how writing is related to the whole thing, and at the same time explain how traditional linguistics has always considered it an offshoot of the "real thing," which would be oral language. My theory puts them all on equal footing. Humans use whatever symbols they deem easiest to use, and most of the time this is the sounds we can make in our mouth. In the case of the deaf it is the hands. In the case of people who don't have access to either hand or mouth communication it could be writing. All symbols are arbitrary. All are equal. Humans use the ones that are easiest to establish a communication system with. And that could be writing or chat.
Second, perceptual theory is an entire field of psychology. The moving parts in our system, which we will watch change in a regular, scientifically beautiful pattern which looks so fine and mathematical that it must be magic or exceedingly good design, are actually human perceptions. You perceive the vowels of our language to be like this. Therefore you make them like this, or as close to it as you can. Your production is based on your perception. Your perception is based on your observation of what you have actually heard or seen. To get at that last part, we have to break perception down into two parts: what you actually heard, and what you interpreted it as. A third part is how you created your average. For example, you heard a thousand /a/'s. One of them was an outlier, created by your uncle who came from the old country. You decided not to average him in because you decided he was an outlier. You decided that you wanted to speak like the people you go to school with rather than like your uncle, because there would be a price connected to speaking like your uncle and you didn't want to pay it. Uncle can pay the price; he's from the old country anyway. You want to be seen as coming from here. So you calculate the average out of the other 999 /a/'s that you heard and try to replicate the norm that you perceive. You may in fact calculate wrongly or be influenced unduly by something you saw on television or something else. Your perception may not be the same as what we might calculate as the actual norm if we were to simply measure every /a/ in the world and do the math for the entire system. What I'm saying is that the norm "English /a/ sounds like this" may not be exactly the same as your perceived norm "I believe English /a/ sounds like this" but the perceived norm is what you are using to create your own language. And the norms cover not only the sounds, the vowels and consonants, but also ways of creating sentences, ways of interpreting words, choice of words to use in situations, formal/informal distinctions, etc.
My section on perception will sound much like what you have just read. My time is running out and I can't do even a chapter on the entire story. I no longer believe I can support all this with the appropriate research and make it sound like I read everything there was to be read on the topic. Therefore I can't make a standard lit review as such and shouldn't even try. In brief, the same thing goes for Cooley (looking-glass self) and the field of self-organization physics. I have gotten a little removed from that and will have to fly over it in the book. No matter. Let people look into it in their own time and framework. I will do what I can do.
Stay tuned and I will keep you posted. The book, Vowels in an Elevator, will be out hopefully before the end of the year.
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